Showing posts with label mental wellness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mental wellness. Show all posts

Friday, December 27, 2019

New Year’s Resolutions with a Mental Health Focus


The new year is well on its way and resolutions will be abound. It’s well known that new year’s resolutions tend to fall off early in the year. I tend to shy away from choosing a new year for new resolutions—or goals—because it creates an external motivator. You’re motivated because it is the new year rather than because it is what you want to do and you’re ready to do it.

That having been said, I recognize the new year is a great time to set new goals. The hustle and bustle of the holidays is over and January tends to have minimal distractions related to holidays, heavy work -loads, school trips, vacations…etc. Those distractions will pick up after January and in order to stick to your resolution, I recommend making the focus of anything you do related to your mental health.

Why? Maybe it’s because I’m passionate about it, but I like to hope that if you focus on your mental health it will be more meaningful and important than other motivations. Let’s take a look at how you can shift your focus:


Lose Weight/Get Fit


One of the most popular new year’s resolutions, the prospect losing weight packs gyms from January to mid-February…and that’s when the resolution fizzles out. Weight loss is a tough goal to reach because the focus is on the numbers on the scale and the sacrifice of time. This is manageable in January likely because there aren’t as many distractions or temptations as most people detox from the holiday socializing and indulgences. Once February rolls around, holidays, social responsibilities, work load, and more is back in full swing and that’s when resolutions get tested.

If your resolution related to your weight and fitness is focused on sacrifice and loss, as mentioned above, how well are you going to weather the challenge of February’s, March’s, April’s…distractions? Instead, I recommend focusing on the benefits of exercise for mental health. For details, check out this article. When looking at it from a mental health perspective, you can focus on gaining more energy, feeling less anxious, spending your time for self-care, and having more social interaction.

With this focus you gain rather than lose and that alone sounds more positive. But you’re also taking away the fear of the scale, the frustration if you don’t see the numbers drop, and the lament of time not spent elsewhere. If you’re looking to lose weight and get fit in 2020, make your goals about how the process benefits your mental health to keep you motivated.


Save Money


While we may not like it, money is important to daily living as it affords us what we need and what we want—which can often times support self-care. That’s likely why people tend to resolve to save money in the new year. Saving money is an exercise in patience, organization, and prioritizing. So, it’s definitely hard to start and even harder to stick to.

The good news is, patience, organization, and prioritization are great skills to support mental health as well. To bring a mental health focus to saving money, I recommend including practices involving these skills. Challenge yourself to wait and save up over time for an item you might have previously purchased right away and if you make it, reward yourself with a small bonus such as a special coffee or bubble bath. Organize your phone calendar with reminders so that you’re not rushing to get in everything you need to finish before the next month. Choose your priorities based on, not just funds, but time and self-care, too.


Spend Time with Loved Ones


Many of us lead busy lives and it often gets in the way of enjoying the people we love. This seems like a simple fix; open up time for family and friends and plan to use it. What isn’t simple is; a) enjoying the time spent without worrying about all that isn’t getting done; and b) getting others on board.

To start out, if you’re going to commit to making time for friends and family, you have to commit to it being important enough to be in the moment. That may mean practicing mindfulness so you can stay in the moment, writing down all you have to do and when you’ll get it done so your mind can be free when you’re spending time with loved ones, or cutting back on other obligations such as work projects and volunteering. If this is a priority, don’t just make the time for it, make the mental space for it, too.

The trouble with this resolution is that it requires more than just your effort. There’s at least one other person involved in this exchange and if they don’t also put in the time and energy, you can’t make them. Focus on what you can do to reach this resolution and recognize what’s out of your control to reduce the stress of making this happen.


There are many new year’s resolutions such as quitting smoking, drinking less, learning new skills/information, traveling, and the list goes on. Challenge yourself to consider how you can put the focus of these or your own resolutions on mental health. Overall, make whatever resolution you set about what you want and make sure that you have good reasons for it, like your mental health and wellness.


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Friday, October 4, 2019

Cosplay the Anxiety Away


It’s October, my favorite time of the year. It’s the time of year my brand of weird gets to shine. So let’s talk about dressing up in costume.

Pieces of my cosplay accessory being built

The first costume I remember wearing was Snow White, for Halloween. My mom made it by hand with textured fabrics and sequins. My love of costumes never seemed to dwindle. I wore a lot of costumes from then on, evolving from just Halloween costumes to characters—such as a dead club kid dressed as a fairy.

The first actual cosplay I took on was Kitana from Mortal Kombat® during my first convention. I mimicked poses from the original game for pictures and nodded at others in costumes from my game universe. It felt so comfortable.

The difference between wearing a costume and taking part in cosplay is that in cosplay you are not just dressed as the character, but acting as the character. It’s a performance in a lot of ways. You may develop a voice, movements, and poses that emulate your character.


For someone with chronic anxiety, like me, attention was uncomfortable and something to be avoided. But under the mask—literally and metaphorically—of my character, attention was tolerable, good, even. There was no pressure in social interactions because I knew what the fellow con-goers wanted from me—mostly just a picture and to pay a compliment. I found it easy to reach out with the same praise to other cosplayers.

Twelve years later, I believe this is only the tip of the iceberg of what cosplay has done for me. The research is minimal on the topic and based on personal stories more than statistics, so there’s no science supporting these views. But I know it’s not just me. I’ve know people in person and read posts online from those who have gone through some type of experiential “therapy” by taking part in cosplay.


What do I think cosplay can do for you?



Cosplay improves social interaction: If you’ve read my blog, you know I like to highlight social interaction as a major part of mental well-being given that so many mental illness lead to isolation. Whether you’re sharing ideas and photos with a social media cosplay community, going to a Halloween party or local event, working on accessories with friends, or attending a convention welcoming costumes, this is a hobby that will lead to interaction.

As I mentioned earlier, talking to others is easier at conventions and other events where people are coming in costume. The start of a conversation is as easy as commenting on their look. For those who don’t know how to start the conversation, chances are someone will want to talk about your costume. If you cosplay, you’ll be there as a character and act as the character (appropriately) which may take the pressure off of worrying about what others will think of you since you’re being someone or something else.

Is it perfect? No, you’ll probably want to be able to feel comfortable as yourself and be socially interactive in other settings. I think of this as a really fun stepping stone, a place where it can feel a little bit safer to try out social skills.


Cosplay engages the mind: As I’ve mentioned before, creativity is good for the mind and hobbies tend to also be our coping and self-care skills. Many cosplayers make their own costumes and accessories which requires building skills, practicing, and trying new techniques. Regular con-goers tend to have a cosplay project going at all times.

Even if you don’t want to make everything from scratch, there’s still going to be a level of creativity you may not have expected. You can find creativity in developing the right make-up style, making alterations to existing clothes and shoes, styling a wig, or developing the character’s posture and poses. Regardless of how you approach this, you will be engaging your mind and keeping yourself focused on something enjoyable.


Cosplay gives you something to look forward to: Whether it’s the next convention, taking and editing photos, or seeing the look you developed come together, there’s always something to look forward to! When you have something to anticipate, it can often help you get through the tough day at work or push through the fatigue that drags you down. We should all have something to look forward to and cosplay can be a consistent provider of anticipation due to the near-infinite possibilities for costumes and regular scheduling of conventions all over. And, of course, every year there’s Halloween! *MY FAVORITE!*


Cosplay improves problem-solving: When you’re developing your costume, it’s usually not smooth sailing. You’ll make mistakes, try multiple ways to address a need, and learn new information in order to develop the look you want. What you’ll get out of it is an ability to assess the issue, take on new perspective, and adapt to the situation. Developing your cosplay can often help you practice patience and flexibility. Additionally, if you have a wardrobe malfunction, you’ll learn quickly what you need to carry with you to manage those and/or how to ask for help from others.


Personally, I feel more outgoing, comfortable with attention, and open to new experiences since testing the waters with cosplay. Now, I continue to do it for the challenge and excitement of crafting and developing the character. This year I’m so excited to be trying out a new challenge and hope to be able to pull it off. Can you guess what it is by the picture?


If you’re looking for a new way to support your mental wellness, help address your social worries, or find daily motivation cosplay might work for you!


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Friday, September 20, 2019

How to Build a Self-Care Box



When mental health declines, we’re in an emotional slump, or things just keep going wrong, we are not always focusing on self-care. Thinking ahead and being proactive in wellness is key. That’s why I want to help you get started on your self-care box.

A self-care box is a container—usually a box but could be a basket, tote, or bag—that is filled with items to promote self-care when it’s hard to do. There are vast arrays of items that can be included and whatever you come up with is meant to be uniquely suited to you.

Let’s look at what might go inside a self-care box.



Paper—This paper isn’t blank. The paper in your box should include uplifting notes from yourself and others, inspiring quotes, and reminders of the positive in your life. It’s easy to focus on the negative when life gets hard and these reminders can be just the thing to bring awareness to the good in life and you. Be sure to utilize your positive days when you can appreciate yourself and/or the world, and write it in a note for future you to find comfort in.


Something soft—Soft is soothing. Include a soft, soothing object that fits you. Need something to squeeze? Go with a stuffed animal or pillow. Want to wrap up in warmth? Include a blanket or special set of PJs. Fuzzy slippers may be just right for you.


Smell good stuff—Candles or incense (if you’re safe around fire), essential oils, bath bombs, soaps, scented waxes for warmers, lotion…items that provide a soothing-scented atmosphere and engage you in self-care. Whether these items prompt you to relax, meditate, or take a bath, connect the smells to wellness.


Audio items—If you still have CDs, include one or more of them in your box that you know will reduce your stress and improve your mood. If not, make a list self-care playlist and write a reminder to listen to it. Not into music? Try nature sounds.


Spiritual supports—If you are spiritual in any way, you likely find peace in a spiritual word or practice. Include the written word of your religion, healing crystals, meditation guides, a smudge stick, religious symbols or artifacts (like a rosary, for example), or cleansing spells.


Snacks—Non-perishable, long lasting items like tea, dry soup mix, and chocolate are some option. The intent is not to increase stress eating but, rather, provide yourself with a treat that lifts your mood and calms you down.


Interest items—Think - something you enjoy that inspires you, incites positive feelings, or just makes you smile. Maybe you’ll stash a comic from your favorite series, add some decorations from your favorite season or holiday, include glitter and other pretty things…the list goes on.


Sensory items—Grab a stress ball, make slime, fiddle with a fidget cube—if you put them in your box, you can do any of these and more. Sensory items don’t just appeal to touch as the aforementioned do, they can be visual or auditory, too. The snacks should take care of taste!


Safety network—Include a list of people and numbers you can call or go see for support. This can include friends, family, local crisis hotlines, national crisis hotlines, a therapist, and local ER. You may even want to put them in order of who you’ll want to start with first.


Now go find your box! How big or small it needs to be depends on what you intend to put in it and how much. Keep it simple or decorate it. Make it large and full or make it small and reserved. However you decide to make it, it should be suited to work for you.


What’s one self-care item that’s a must have in your self-care box? Share in the comments below, interact with me on Instagram, or re-tweet on Twitter with your answer!



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Friday, September 6, 2019

Get Creative With Mental Wellness


Picture of decorated cake

Think back to the last time you molded clay, concocted slime, drew a picture, decorated a room…any one of your favorite creative ventures. Which senses did you involve? Was it relaxing or energizing? Did you join others in the experience or focus on your imagination? How did you feel once you’d completed your goal?


This past weekend I baked and decorated a cake, eager to try my hand at some of the techniques I’d seen in step-by-step videos that make everything look so easy. I may not have the skills of a master confectioner, but I did feel satisfaction, focus, and a release of energy from the 4 hour—that’s right, it took FOREVER—baking/decorating marathon. This is what I want to address today: how art benefits your mental health.

As a mental health and co-occurring disorders therapist, I do not specialize in art therapy, but I do appreciate how creativity positively impacts our mental health. What I do know about art therapy is that it’s about expression, engaging all senses, and tapping into places talking often cannot.  It’s a powerful therapy modality that I don’t intend to get into here, but it got me thinking that if art is used in therapy (something I believe in so strongly) it must be good for you outside of therapy!


 Here are the 5 ways doing art can benefit your mental health:


1. Self-Esteem—Plain and simple; it feels so good to complete a project successfully. Whether it’s a paint by numbers or five foot bronze sculpture, you can feel good about the work you did. If you’re just getting started, your skills can improve with practice increasing self-esteem as you see your work getting better. This further amplifies when others appreciate your work.

I received so many compliments for the steampunk pumpkin centerpieces I made for my wedding. All of them left with guests and the wedding party.  I still feel so good about the work I did and how beautiful they came out.


2. Stress reduction—Color a mandala, experiment with water colors, create a floral arrangement, or piece together a scrapbook. Something that has repetition can be particularly soothing. When you’re fully engaged in your art, you’re in the present moment, reducing the ability to reach into the future and examine the “what ifs” that support stress. Pairing art with mindfulness is an opportunity to use both for stress reduction.

3. Social Connection—There are so many ways we can use art to connect with others—reducing isolation. You can go to one time events such as a paint night, join a local club focusing on knitting, take a non-credit course to improve your craft, or engages friends and family in a craft night. All of these bring you in physical contact with others. There are options digitally as well. Groups on social media share ideas and finished works of art to develop conversation and camaraderie around artwork of different kinds.

4. Energy Release—You can definitely work out pent-up physical energy through art as much of it can be tactile. Emotional energy can also be released through self-expression. You have control over the art you create putting power in place of fear so that you can be free to express what words cannot. Before I baked and decorated by cake this weekend, I was buzzing with the anticipation of creating it for a couple of weeks. I worked out the energy once I took on the challenge. I feel it charging up again and I’ll have to get back to my baking pans to do it once more.

5. Redirected Thinking—Art tends to require attention and concentration. You may have to plan out your next move with each new step to a project or keep track of how many times you’ve completed a certain action. By taking your attention and concentration, art can free your mind from negative thoughts that fuel various mental health disorders and cause decline. Additionally, coupled with the increase of self-esteem, you can also utilize your pride in your work as a positive counter to negative self-talk.


I’d like to end on some suggestions for getting started in making art a part of your regular self-care:


  • Start a Pintrest board to gather ideas and how to’s
  • Get into cosplay by making costumes, armor, and fake weapons
  • Join a crafting group at your local library or community center
  • Purchase low-cost supplies if you’re uncertain of what you’d enjoy to allow you to try it first
  • Start back where you left off on a previous art project or hobby
  • Don’t limit your art expression to traditional modalities—paint shoes, sculpt fondant, mold chocolate, create mash ups, think three dimensional, try big and small…whatever it is, make sure you’re doing it for you and the way you want to do it.


Art is beneficial for our mental health as a means of increasing self-esteem, reducing stress, connecting socially, releasing energy, and redirecting thinking. Adding art to your self-care toolbox is a great way of engaging most or all of your senses in your recovery and management of mental illness, or maintaining mental wellness. Get out there and create! Share your creations in the comments on Twitter with me!


Disclaimer—As mentioned above, I do not specialize in art therapy and am not referring to art therapy techniques in this post. As always, this blog and posts therein are not intended as medical or clinical advice. 



Friday, August 30, 2019

You Can Add Singing To Your Mental Health Toolbox




Crooning out the mesmerizing tune of Celtic Woman’s rendition of “Caledonia” held me up from starting this article. You’ve felt it before; the rush of belting out every word perfectly to your favorite song, using all the breath in your lungs to support the notes; you connect to the lyrics and melody. It’s exhilarating, comforting, fun, and, at times, physically challenging in best way! Did you know singing, for all these qualities and more, is good for your mental health?


I’ve loved singing my whole life but didn’t start truly using my full voice until my tonsils were removed (which don’t recommend doing in your 20’s if you can help it). I was taking classic voice courses in college and practiced fervently during that time. Later, I’d be preparing for regular stage roles involving use of my trained vocals. Having been out of lessons and theater for some time, I don’t regularly make time for my voice training.

But I need to make time for singing! The difference in me when practiced and when not is becoming clear. What I share with you here probably explains why.


Here are four ways singing benefits your mental health:


Singing makes you happier: I feel better when I sing. Sometimes I sing when I’m sad because I know it will bring my mood up. This is due to the act of singing releasing different hormones, such as endorphins, that promote improved mood. This becomes even more powerful when singing in a group


Singing improves sleep: Doubtless you know that sleep has a major impact on mental health and many other functions of the body. It can even create a cyclical affect if a mental illness impacts sleep you become more tired, and then your tiredness affects your mental illness and back around. One impact singing can have on sleep is by strengthening muscles in the throat which reduces snoring. Less snoring = more sleep!


Singing is great physical activity: I won’t go into the benefits of physical activity and exercise here. If you want more information, check out my earlier article on it. Did you know singing is exercise, too? Since physical activity has major benefits for mental health, singing is another fun option to add a different type of exercise to your routine. I know my lungs and core always feel stronger when I’m regularly practicing vocals. Singing certainly feels like a workout to me!


Singing relieves stress: You may be working out some muscles when signing, but you’re also reducing muscle tension, thereby reducing stress. Additionally, it’s been found that singing reduces cortisol, one of the stress hormones. Singing is certainly soothing to me. I definitely feel less stressed when regularly challenging my vocal abilities.


As I finish this article I’m enjoying my favorite song from The Darkness, “I Believe In A Thing Called Love,” while joining vocalist Justin Hawkins in the high notes! It’s time I get back into practicing singing every day to support my mental health progress.


How about you? Is singing going to become one of your ways to support mental health and wellness? Let me know in the comments, or on social media at Twitter or Instagram!



Works Cited


Celtic Woman. "Caledonia." Emerald: Music Gems, 2007.

Horn, Stacy. “Singing Changes Your Brain.” Time, Time, 16 Aug. 2013, http://ideas.time.com/2013/08/16/singing-changes-your-brain/.

Ibe, Uche. “Three Ways Singing Makes You Healthier.” Making Music Magazine, 24 Apr. 2019, https://makingmusicmag.com/three-ways-singing-makes-you-healthier/.

Innes, Emma. “How Singing Could Be the Key to a Good Night's Sleep: Research Suggests Vocal Exercises Can Stop Snoring.” Daily Mail Online, Associated Newspapers Ltd, 16 Aug. 2013, https://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-2395795/How-singing-key-good-nights-sleep-Research-suggests-vocal-exercises-stop-snoring.html.

The Darkness. "I Believe In A Thing Called Love." Permission To Land, 2003.

University of East Anglia. "How singing your heart out could make you happier." ScienceDaily. ScienceDaily, 21 December 2017. <www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2017/12/171221101402.htm>.


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Friday, August 16, 2019

What Are You Waiting For? Get Outdoors to Improve Your Mental Health!


Herons on the Water by Ali Nicole


The fresh air, the soothing breeze, the vibrant colors and deep textures, all buzzing with life. That’s what I enjoyed over a long weekend as I made my way outdoors to explore local nature trails for healing and tranquility. I want to share with you the benefits to mental health I found there.

If you follow this blog on Instagram, you might have seen this article coming as I’ve posted multiple pictures from my walks already. Indeed, I found it so inspiring and beautiful I had to share it with you! I feel it’s also worth exploring the mental health benefits of being outside in nature.

The Mental Health Benefits I Found In Nature Walks


Joy – The biggest benefit that stands out is the joy I got from my time outside. It’s difficult not to smile and revel in the art in nature. I saw brilliantly colored wildflowers, expansive spider webs wet with dew, and wildlife at peace in safe habitats. Joy is temporary because it is an emotion but it is something you can seek out in experiences such as this!


Relaxation and stress reduction – There is no hurry out on the trails. While you can benefit from the physical activity, that’s not the primary objective. It can be, but you can also just allow nature to be a place to breathe like I did. Take your time meandering and devouring the sites.


Self-esteem boost – This was unexpected, but I felt like a priestess of the Earth as I connected with nature. Although I was in my yoga getup and sneakers, I look back envisioning myself as the gothic goddess at my core spirit. Try going out on a beautiful, lush nature trail and not feel like the lady of the lake. I don’t believe it can be done.


Clear mind – The ability to feel present and aware in the moment has never been stronger than in the moments I’m exploring wooded trails. In fact, the experience is perfect for practicing mindfulness because it’s so simple to put your mind solely on the beauty in front of you. Where I go, there tends to be a lot of tree roots protruding from the ground, so I had to be extra aware so as not to fall!


Companionship – You can choose to go with others or on your own (safety precautions taken, of course), but from my experience I enjoying the trails most with others. Sharing the experience reduces feelings of isolation and gives an extra set of eyes and point of view. What you miss, a companion can highlight for you.



If you’ve read the rest of the blog, you know I had to do some research to see if there was empirical support for what I was experiencing.




I found a bevy of information from an article on the MentalHealth Benefits of the Outdoors. Reduced stress and increased joy are major benefits, just as I felt. Better concentration and attention are also indicated, which I consider parts of a clear mind.  Additionally, according to a 2005 study, mixing the outdoors with exercise has been shown to boost self-esteem as well when the setting is eye-pleasing. You may already know from my previous article on exercise, that physical activity can reduce loneliness because it tends puts you in contact with other—moving outdoors fits into this as well.



What benefits can you find in the outdoors? Embrace your inner weirdo and step into the skin of the Earthen god or goddess you’ve always wanted to be. Find your own mental health benefits exploring outside.
 



Works Cited

“Exercise and Mental Health.” Healthdirect, www.healthdirect.gov.au/exercise-and-mental-health.

McMichael, Sarah. “Mental Health Benefits of Spending Time in Nature.” Ontario Parks, 23 Apr. 2019, www.ontarioparks.com/parksblog/mental-health-benefits-outdoors/.

Pretty, J, et al. “The Mental and Physical Health Outcomes of Green Exercise.” International Journal of Environmental Health Research, vol. 15, no. 5, Oct. 2005, pp. 319–337. The National Center for Biotechnology Information, doi:10.1080/09603120500155963.



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Friday, August 9, 2019

Anxiety Locked Me Into Battle


I’m Winning the War


I was in tears again, my breathing quick and my face contorted, ruminating on the wasted time and money put out for a career I couldn’t handle. The focus remained on all I’d given up just to be a frantic mess every Sunday, like clockwork. There was no breaking out of it once I got there. The physical sensation along with the damning thoughts closed in on me, locking me in tight.

I would fall asleep that night quickly, exhausted from my evening meltdown—it felt like I could have well melted from the fire that burned inside, threatening to consume me. Sleep would be short-lived because this night, like every night before the work week began, I would wake in a panic to irrational thoughts. My tired mind had no chance of fighting. Once fully awake, I wrestled the thoughts and put them to rest, but by then I knew it would be up and down for the remainder of my five resting hours.

Another week for me to start off groggy and in pain from apparent TMJ. I wouldn’t get a full night’s rest until Thursday and the cycle would repeat. That was my story from fall of last year to spring of this one.

A Lifetime of Fighting Anxiety Monsters


Before that tale was a similar one in which I’d have nightmares about not finishing all that was needed for the wedding. In the evenings I’d be angry with my significant other that we were planning a wedding at all because it was too much pressure. All the while, I refused to share the burden (needing control) with anyone until the very end. Once I did, my bridesmaids, husband and mom were happy to help.

I can lump every period of my life into a saga based around the biggest contributor to anxiety: the wrath of God; fear of losing my loved ones; being alone forever; school; job; school; health; grad school; licensing; getting a job…all the way up to the wedding and back to the job. During each one I’d think, “once I get past this one thing, I’ll feel better. Things will be better.”

It never got better. There was always something, even when there shouldn’t have been. The next big bad I’d quest to slay.

How Would Life Be Different Without Anxiety Battles?


Hindsight is 20/20, and I know now that I’ve got a master’s degree in counseling that I’ve dealt with anxiety my whole life. In grade school, my mom would complain at every doctor visit that I had terrible stomach pains multiple times a week. It’s hard not to feel bitter that they lazily recommended me eating more fruits and vegetables (which I already at enough of). Though I shouldn’t look back, I do and wonder how different my life would have been if they’d seen my anxiety for what it was and I was treated early.

I spent so many years of my life trapped in battle with anxiety I had no clue existed but what if I didn’t? Would I have made friends easier if I wasn’t so busy second-guessing myself? What would I have done with all the energy from nights not spent waking to panic attacks, sitting up to catch my breath and calm my heart multiple times a night? Would I have gotten past impostor syndrome in time to decide I could succeed in a “hard” graduate program, rather than talking myself away from it? (Side note: my program was just as hard as any doctoral program).

 The Final Battle with Anxiety


Those answers are lost to fate and there’s no changing it. My only power is in shaping the here and now so that I never let anxiety trap me again. I can proudly say now, after a fierce battle, that I am not staring down a big bad anymore.

That’s not to say the difficulties of life haven’t been threatening my newfound freedom. Quite the opposite. My work is stressful—but only because it’s important—my mom just had surgery—and it was successful—and my best friend got married and I was the matron of honor—it was beautiful. So, yes, I still have reasons to be anxious and could have turned any of these into my current catastrophe, but that didn’t happen.

How did I go from a lifetime of fighting unending battles to declaring peace inside myself? I started by recognizing the mental illness for what it was. It came shortly before I graduated. Prior to that, I didn’t see a pattern, I didn’t want to see the signs and symptoms, and I just assumed I was an irritable and reactive person. Once I did come to understand what I was dealing with, it would still be a lengthy road to wellness.

I knew what I needed to do; go see a counselor. That’s hard when you plan to get a job as a counselor in a small, rural area with limited job options. A conflict of interest develops if you want to work the same place your counselor is. I ended up putting this off in the interest of employment.

Trying to work on myself on my own, I turned to the Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) techniques I’d learned in school. It helped responding to my negative and irrational thoughts. The physical experience of anxiety was still there so I returned to my exercise routine which helped some. I still struggled.

They say the third time’s a charm and that was true when I saw my third endocrinologist who finally diagnosed me with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), a hormonal disorder that can impact mood and overall function. I advocated for my health during this time and took a chance on treatment which did help. I wasn’t over yet; I still had work to do.

Already taking a couple of new medications for PCOS, I was hesitant to go to a psychiatrist and add another. It was tough to consider, but I couldn’t manage the physical symptoms of anxiety anymore—the chest pain, the headaches, the shortness of breath, the fatigue, the distractedness, and the emotional reactivity. It didn’t take a high dose to treat my symptoms and in just over a year I’m reducing the dose successfully.

There was one more action left to take. It was the weekly tears and aching regret regarding my work, something I was passionate about and worked so hard for, that woke me up to what I finally needed to do. It was time to seek my own therapy. I’ve had relatively few sessions and am about to complete treatment. This step took me full circle and now I feel confident in my work and get to actually enjoy what I do. Along with that, I have full management of my symptoms.

During the therapeutic process, I also had to make behavioral changes to impact my mood. I joined a gym with my husband and our friends. I believe this has been a major part of my improvement due to the increased social interaction and physical activity. I also broke down the barrier that was keeping me from doing what I’ve wanted to for so long; writing. I’ve slowly moved into the world of writing that I’d been putting off for 10 years. It was a relief to know I could be a counselor and a writer and not have to choose.

Freedom from Anxiety


Finally, I was able to bring together all that I needed to win the final battle against lifelong anxiety. I had to be aware of what was going on, manage my physical health, manage the physical symptoms of anxiety, and introduce positive mental strategies to make these steps successful. Now that I’ve made it, I refuse to go back. There will never be another big bad. I’ve won this war.


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Friday, August 2, 2019

Managing Mental Health with Mindfulness


Imagine what it would feel like to fully focus on a moment without reaching into the phantom future or stewing in the concrete past. How would the moment change without negative judgments or fearful possibilities hovering over it? Mindfulness reveal the present and it’s a great tool for mental wellness.

When mindfulness was first introduced to me, I was resistant. I remember sitting in class, building up the mental brick wall to the intangible exercises that sounded far too much like meditation. “This hippy stuff won’t work,” I thought skeptically.

In the present, my skepticism has softened into acceptance. The concept of mindfulness as a healthy practice has seeped into my pores through osmosis. It surrounded me until one day I found the brick wall keeping it out completely dissolved.

Mindfulness broke down my resistance because, well, it works! Once it’s learned, it can’t be unlearned. I’ve taken it in and utilized it on my own without even intending to as I’ve brought it to my therapeutic work. Unwittingly, I find myself loving the practice the more I preach it.

Enough of me gushing! Let me explain what mindfulness is, what it does, and how you can use it for your benefit.


 What is mindfulness?

Mindfulness is the practice of being in the moment, fully present, without judgment. It is closely connected in meditation and a necessary part of it some might say. However, meditation isn’t needed to use mindfulness. Mindfulness can act all its own to provide an array of benefits to many areas of living—this article will just be focusing on mental health.


What does mindfulness do?

It reduces stress—When aware in the moment, we are able to recognize what is happening in mind and body before it overcomes us. Mindfulness can give a fighting chance against stress. Consider this, if you notice your thoughts are negative and rapid along with tense shoulders, you have the power to attend to your thoughts and work to relax your tensing muscles. Bringing the buildup of stress to a halt.

The research backs this up—researchers found in 2007 that mindfulness reduced overall levels of stress in graduate students studying clinical psychology. As a bonus, they found a reduction in ruminating on thoughts and, as we will explore more below, the participants were better able to regulate emotions (Shapiro et al., 2007).


It improves emotional regulation—Think of a time when you didn’t recognize how you were feeling until it disrupted the day, others began to notice the change, or, at worst, it was misdirected to cause emotional harm to self or others. Using mindfulness promotes awareness of emotional experience which can increase reaction time to said emotions for management. The sooner the emotions are recognized, the sooner their impact can be managed and reduced; emotional regulation.

Improved emotional regulation with use of mindfulness was specifically studied by Hill and Updegraff in 2011. Results of this study showed with mindfulness practice, emotional regulation was improved and this included reduced emotional reactivity and less rapid switching between emotions (Hill & Updegraff, 2011). Mindfulness practice enhanced the ability to control emotions rather than letter emotions be in control.


It can help treat anxiety and depression symptoms—Anxiety and depression can both be related to stress and emotional deregulation. We know mindfulness helps with both of these. Additionally, anxiety sends the mind into the future, fearing what may come to pass, and depression send the mind into the past, lamenting missed chances and what no longer is. If mindfulness works to bring the mind into the present then it cannot also occupy the past and future.

In the research, mindfulness is kept in the context of therapy, called mindfulness based therapy, to help treat anxiety and depression. One meta-analysis study by Boston University researchers looked at 39 studies that focused on mindfulness based therapy treating these disorders. They found that mindfulness based therapy was an effective treatment for anxiety and depression across these many research results (Hofman et al., 2010).


It does…so much more—I suspect we are just starting to understand what mindfulness can do for mental health and the research will only grow. In addition to the above, Jeena Cho presented more information on mindfulness in a Forbes article that included benefits such as increased body satisfaction, lower distractedness, and overall better cognition (2016). In personal and clinical experience, I find mindfulness improves focus, time management, and motivation. Such a vast array of payback for an easy and enjoyable practice!

Ready to learn to use mindfulness? Let’s get started…


How is mindfulness practiced?

As you know now, it can be used alongside meditation, but that’s not the only way to use it. I’d like to start you off with two of my go-to exercises for beginning mindfulness practice. These are separate from meditation and easy to do.


Mindful Breathing:

Find a quiet space to sit comfortably and close your eyes or soften them to focus on one spot. Start at five minutes and increase your time to 10 or 15 as you progress. You can set an alarm to manage time.
Once in your space, understand that the goal of mindful breathing is to focus on your breath and the sensations related to it. As you breathe, you can notice the air in and out of your lungs lifting and dropping the chest, stomach and/or shoulders. Feel the air temperature in and out and the sensation of air entering your throat.
During the time you’re practicing this focus your mind may wander. Acknowledge the stray thoughts, let them go, do not judge them or yourself, and calmly return to the breath. This exercise makes minimal demands while allowing for training in basic principles of mindfulness.

Due to its minimal nature, mindful breathing may be difficult to start with for people who need active focus. For this, I use the body scan exercise with elements of progressive muscle relaxation. This provides a moving focus while operating on the same principles.


Body Scan:

Find a comfortable seating position or lay flat with eyes closed or softened. The focus will start at the breath as in the mindful breathing exercise. Once focused, bring attention gradually to each food, calf, and thigh, the core, the chest and back, the shoulders, each arm and hand, the neck, and the head/face, moving up as though doing a scan of the body.
Examine each area for sensations such as temperature, internal feeling, external feeling, muscle tension, and so on. Once completed in the area of focus, let go of anything no serving you such as tension or judgment. It helps me to imagine it flowing out in light wisps; use any visualization you’d like. At the end you should feel muscles relaxed and return to your breathing before exiting the exercise.

After either the body scan or mindful breathing is completed, notice any thoughts that were difficult to let go of or sensations you didn’t recognize before starting. Consider if your temperature, posture, heart rate, or breathing changed. You may want to keep a journal of this process to see progress.
Once you feel you’ve made enough progress to feel comfortable in using mindfulness, you can use more advanced exercises as well. There are so many great resources for mindfulness exercises across the web and supported in mobile apps.


Mindful Eating:

This exercise turns a mundane, daily, sometimes thoughtless activity into an opportunity for awareness. It’s often recommended using a food that is small, textured, and aromatic to do this practice, such as a raisin. However, mindful eating can be done with any food you choose to eat.
Your goal will be to focus fully on eating without distracting thoughts or judgment. Take time to examine the food, each bite of it, with all senses. Feel the weight of the utensil in your hand, the temperature of the food, and the texture as you chew. Smell from the plate and from your utensil. See the colors, consistency, and arrangement of it. Hear the sounds of scraping, chewing, and swallowing. Of course, take time to slowly taste and savor each bite.


Three 3’s Grounding Exercise:

Mindfulness grounding exercises are helpful for a quick reset when the day gets overwhelming. While some use the 5-4-3-2-1 exercise, I prefer to use three 3’s because it’s easier to remember when focus is off. You can do this in any setting (that is safe to do so) by taking a moment to be aware. Start with finding three things you can feel such as the ground under your feet and examine each. Move on to three things you can hear like the tick of a clock and move through each slowly. Finally, attend to three things you can see and really take in the features of what you look at. Once completed, breath once to reset and bring your focus back to the present renewed.


Be consistent—These exercises are at their best when used consistently. Daily practice may not be necessary but regular practice makes it easier to use them naturally in daily life. It’s tempting to only use these when struggling, but practice when you’re doing well can increase effectiveness when stress is higher. Use mindfulness intentionally and consistently because practice makes…nothing is perfect…really good!


This information and the exercises are only the beginning. There’s a whole world of mindfulness techniques, tips, and technology available to advance and supplement your practice. Check out the the sources cited for more information on mindfulness and mental health.


Sources Cited

Cho, Jeena. “6 Scientifically Proven Benefits Of Mindfulness And Meditation.” Forbes, Forbes Magazine, 14 July 2016, www.forbes.com/sites/jeenacho/2016/07/14/10-scientifically-proven-benefits-of-mindfulness-and-meditation/#626ff6e163ce.

Hill, Christina L.M., and Updegraff, John A. “Mindfulness and Its Relationship to Emotional Regulation.” PubMed, vol. 12, no. 1, Dec. 2011, pp. 81–90. ResearchGate, doi:10.1037/a0026355

Hofmann, Stefan G, et al. “The Effect of Mindfulness-Based Therapy on Anxiety and Depression: A Meta-Analytic Review.” Journal of Consulting and Clinical Psychology, vol. 78, no. 2, 2010, pp. 169–183. SemanticScholar, doi: 10.1037/a0018555.

Shapiro, Shauna L., et al. “Teaching Self-Care to Caregivers: Effects of Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction on the Mental Health of Therapists in Training.” Training and Education in Professional Psychology, vol. 1, no. 2, 2007, pp. 105–115., doi:10.1037/1931-3918.1.2.105.